And so it continues..

Yesterday was such a good day for me at work! Everything seemed to be going my way! Even after work was good :) I was done work at 3 but I had to help teach a ladies clinic at the course so I have to stay a little later. Rob was also done at 3 and he said he would wait for me because the clinic should have only been half an hour although it ended up being an hour or so but he still waited for me which was really nice.

Once we got home we both decided to go down to the dock for a swim and tan. We spent about an hour there and then went back home. I ended up falling asleep and having a little nap and he went out to play basketball with the guys.

I woke up to Rob coming in my room, asking for some KD, I gave him some and he made it for the both of us. We played a game on the computer for a little while and then went back to my room to watch a movie together.

It was like everything was back to normal but not at all at the same time. We were hanging out together but we werent "together-together".

As we were laying on my bed watching the movie, I so badly wanted to cuddle with him but I didnt want to make him feel uncomfortable so I kept my distance and just watched the movie..

After that I couldnt stop thinking about him, once the movie ended we talked for a few minutes and then went our separate ways.

It’s so hard for me right now, I want to spend time with him but at the same time, the more I hangout with him the more I miss him as the guy I can go to when im feeling down and who I can randomly kiss whenever I want. Im not to sure  what to do anymore...

 

Its so hard..

Rob and I stopped seeing each other 2 weeks ago and its different this time.. Normally I can just move on if we we're just seeing each other and not actually going out.. We were only together 2 months.. You think it would be easier then this.. Im not sure, Rob was different.. He was the guy you wanted to bring home to meet your parents. He was so sweet to me and really cared about me.

We stopped our so called relationship because he decided that things were moving too fast and he didnt want to give up that "What if" in his life.. He told me that he was still young and he didnt want to miss out on life.. Lame.

The whole getting over him is so hard because we live together in staff housing and I see him everyday at home and everyday at work, we do work in different departments but its still hard trying to get over someone you cared so much for and have to see them everyday.

We still talk all the time and its not awkward between us because I dont want to loose him as a friend too. There are sometimes where I wish we didnt talk as much so I could get over him.

Last night when we got home from work we ended up talking for awhile just about work and some other things and all of a sudden he hugs me and I ask him what that was for and he tells me that he just needed one, I have no problem with that at all but its hard to get over him when things like that happen.

When we stopped seeing each other he told me that it wasnt because he didnt like me cause he did but just the missing out part of life.. So im sure there is still an attraction there but nothing can come of it type of deal.

I miss when we would watch a movie and cuddle up together and have no cares in the world,it was just me and him. Thats all changed now.. I miss him.